I Miss...

Talking On The Phone For Hours;Endless Amount Of Laughter;Now ...We Dont Have Much To Say;

Being Happy To Be In Each Others Arms Again Even Though I Just Saw You;Now... It Seems Were Just Used To It;

The Way We Said We Would Fix Things;& Actually Did It;Now...It Just Gets Worst;

How We Made Sure We Said I Love You When We Hung Up;Now...We Just Hang Up Quick;

How We Could Joke Around & Just Laugh It Off;Now...Everything Is Taken Seriously;

How My Heart Would Do Back Flips & Turns When You Call;Now...Im Scared To Pick Up Because It Will Be A Fight;

How We Werent Scared Cause Everything Seemed So Perfect;Now...Were Prepared To Loose Each Other;

How Car Rides With You Were So Fun;Now...The Radio & Sounds Of Texting Speak More Than Us;

How Everyone & They Mama Knew How Happy We Were Together;Now...Even They Know Somethings Not Right;

That Pretty Little Vision I Had For Us;Now...Its Such A Blur;

*Ill Be Yours Forever Laura;But Can WE Keep Us Together ?

XOXOT$R

Poem [2]

"We were just friends at the start,
Always having fun, never apart
Then one day, something sparked
The next thing I knew, you had my heart.
The days flew by,
I lost track of time
Everytime I was with you,
I was on cloud nine.
Then one day, you asked me to be your girlfriend
I exclaimed, yes! and prayed we'd last until the very end.
No one could look into my eyes and say I wasn't happy,
Happy that I was with you, and you were with me.
With me in your arms, you told me you loved me,
Then gently kissed my forehead and gave me a squeeze.
I was convinced you were the one for me,
Apart from you, I would never be."

**Thats Exactly How It Used To Be;Idk Whats Going On Now Makes Me Question Is It Really Ment To Be?Im Holding On Until My Heart Slips Away But How Long Will It Be For That?I Just Wanna Go Back;Take It Way Back;All The Way Back;Can We Start Again?Do It Over?Can We Staightin It Out?Can We Work It Out? Because I Dont Wanna Be W/O You...

XOXOT$R

Poem [1]

"There's nothing in this world
That can express my love
You're as beautiful as an angel
And pure as a dove.
Around the world
I've searched and searched
Looking for the one.
Fighting loneliness, sadness,
And rejections
But I now declare that the war is won.
I've found the love,
The love of my life
And I think that one-day
You might be my wife.
We will have children
And live happily ever after
I will make your life joyful
And full of laughter.
Whatever you want I'll give you,
You're the love of my life
That is why I receive you.
With my hands open wide
As wide as the ocean
Just waiting to hug you and never let go
You're the one for me
And that's all I need to know."

I Got A Feeling; WhewwwWhooo

Heyyy Long Time No Type Bahaha Im Watching The Grammy's So Im A Little Hype; Ive Been M.I.A Again ... Smh Ive Got To Get Better At This Ive Just Been So Busyy But Then Not Really ? Ja Snow ? Well Yea Im Sorry Im Back [Baby's Calling] But Yea; Soo Was New? Not A Dayum Thang;Job Hunting & Really Trying To Keep This Relationship On A Good Note;But It Really Just Makes Me Feel Like Im Not Doin Enuff..Maybe She's Doin To Much? Idk But w/e It Is I Dont Want It To Break Us;I Want Us To Open Our Eyes & Realize Was Goin On Before Its To Late..Well Yea Tmo Ima Get Up & Go To The Gas Station & To Applebee's To Apply (= Wish Me Luck...Um Recently A Very Beautiful Girl By The Name Of Marissa Urbina Was Put To Rest I Didnt Know Her;But Friends Of Mine Did & Her Death Really Got To Me;She Really Looked Like She Lived Her Life To The Fullest & By The Words Of Other People She Was A Beautiful Person Inside & Out;I Wanted To Attend At Least Her Wake Or Funeral;But I Was To Chicken To Go At It Alone;No One Wanted To Go With Me *SadFace ... But Yea RestInParadise Sweets;I Know Your Missed By Many;Welp*How We Did We Get Here? Idk What Else I Just Know My Neck Hurts &Im Gonna Finish Watchin The Grammy's...Maybe Deleting My FAcebook/Twitter Everything Will That Make You Happy ? GoodNight .

XOXOT$R

Life;

I Guess These Past Couple Of Days Have Been Alright;Ive Chilled With The Boo;Caught Up On Sleep;& Thought Alot;Well First Lemme Take The Moment To Say My Prayers & Heart Go Out To All The People Of Haiti & God Bless The Ones Who Lost A Loved One During This Tragety[Spell Check};But The More Terrible Disasters Start Happening To The World The More Closer I Think We Are To The World Endind;If You Know Me You Know The World Ending;Death Period Is A Sensative Subject For Me;I Cant Take It;DEATH Is By Far My Numeral Uno Fear;& Lately It Has Been Going Through My Head;Where Am I Gonna Go After I Die?When Am I Gonna Die?How Am I Gonna Die?Am I Gonna Go To Hell For Bein Gay?Is God Gonna End The World To Create A New One?Will I Have My Same Family In The Next Life?Is There Gonna Be A Next Life?Omg The Thought Are Crazy & Never Ending;I Mean Think About It...If You Werent Living What Would You Be?What If God Never Created A World?Its Like Impossible To Even Try To Think About It;I Guess This 2012 Ish Is Really Getting To Me;I Didnt Believe It At First I Havent Even Seen The Movie;I Want Too Though;I Guess I Feel It'll Give Me A Little Closure;Although I Know That Know Matter What The Bible Says;Only God Know's When He Is Returning;I Need To Get My Life Together;Figuire Out What I Really Wanna Do & Go For It;Time Is Ticking;& My Time Could Be Up Right Before I Know It;Lets See Church;I Havent Been In Idk How Long;No Bueno;I Have Time To Go Out With Friends;ETC & Pick Sunday As My Sleep Day;From This Moment On;Im Getting My Ass Up Sunday Mornings;& Going With Or With Out My Mom;Im Done Here In This Subject;Ill Leave Ya Off With A List Of 20 Things I Want To Do Before I DIE =0 !

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21 Things Before I Die

-Read The Whole Bible

-Go To Church At Least 2 Sundays Every Month

-Get A Place With My Amazing Girlfriend

-Jump Off An Airplane

-Be Accepteds By My Family For Being Gay

-Win The Lottery Or Become Extremly Wealthy From My Career

-Travel To At Least 5 Countries

-Adopt At Least 4 Kids

-Get A TeaCup Yorkie

-Be On An Reality T.V Show Preferably Bad Girls Club

-Invent Something Very Useful

-Help Someone Get Off Drugs

-Watch A Baby Being Born

-Give Back To Those Who Have Done For Me

-Be In A Movie

-Take A Picutre With Destinys Child Star On The Walk Of Fame In Cali

-Audition For American Idol

-Stop Smoking

-Become Very Successful In Life

-Meet Obama ; !
-Write A Book About My Life Story

M.L.K;

Welp Its Your Day;You Well Deserve It Sir;Sadens Me You Werent Around In My Time;But Your Legacy Is Well Led On;I Appreciate Everything You Did For Us;& Whats More Important? Your Dream Came True;Without You Alot Of Today Wouldnt Be;I Know Your Looking Down On Us Just As The Picture Shows;Proud & Smiling;I Couldnt Ask For Anything More;You Were A Good Man & God Needed You (=;I Know Your In Heaven Making Wonder's;Thank You Again For Making The World I Live In A Much Better Place;You Deserve All The Credit Your Recieving; **Dreams Are Real;All You Have To Do Is Just Believe;& Trust Me If You Believe It;Than You Can Achieve It.
XOXOT$R

Some Real Shit;

You May Not Be Her First;Her Last Or Her Only; She Loved Before;She May Love Again;But If She Loves You Now What Else Matters? She Is Not Perfect;You Aren’t Either & The Both Of You May Never Be Perfect Together;But If She Can Make You Laugh;Cause You To Think Twice & Admit To Being Human & Making Mistakes Onto Her;Give Her The Most You Can;She May Not Be Thinking About You Every Second Of The Day But She Will Give You A Part Of Her That She Knows You Can Break;Her Heart; So Don’t Change Her;Don’t Analyze Her & Don’t Expect More Than She Can Give;Smile When She Makes You Happy;Let Her Know When She Makes You Mad;& Miss Her When Shes Not There. **I Love Quotes So Err Once & Awhile Ill Leave You With One;Now G.N 4Real4Real...
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Second;

Procastination Has Taken Over Me; {Seriously] . Ive Re-Started This Post All Day .. Well 4Real4Real This Time Ima Finish;Today Was What It Seems Like The Longest Most Boring-Est Day Ive Had In Awhile; Not To Mention The Wet/Cold Look I Saw While Lookin Out My Window;For The Most Part Ive Done Nothing Today;Been On The Comp;Phone;Eating;& Sleeping Until Later On Today I Made A Stop;& Gave A Friend A Ride Nothing Major;Well Im Still Getting The Hang Of This Blog Thing;Ive Looked At Many Others To Get Some Idea's Didnt Really Help So I Did My On Thang & Im Pretty Content With The Results;I Was Thinking Yesterday & I Realized Lately Ive Only Smoked Because Of Things Im Going Through But I Also Think About How Active I Used To Be;I Loved Running/Racing & I Used To Cheer;& Simple Ish As Running Up The Stairs Get Me Outta Breath;Little Things Im Noticing About Me Are Changing & I Think Smoking May Be The Cause Of It So Therefore I Vow To Try My Best To Not Buy A Pack Of Newport Longs;I Hadnt Smoked One Today Maybe Das A Start...Welp I Miss My Family In Chicago Soooo Much Cant Wait For The Trip Out There Next Month;Ive Been Talking To My Grandmother Alot Lately I Feel Us Getting Closer By The Day (= ; Me & Mi Madre's Relationship Is Rocky But At The End Of The Day I Realize That She Just Wants Whats Best For Me;But She Has To Realize That Im Old Enough To Make My Own Decisions & Im Only Doing What Makes Me Happy;With That Being Said I Love My Life & Everyone In It; ! B.T.W Omg My Hair Is Growing .. Yea As You Can See Im Pretty Random & You Will Notice That In Alot Of My Post But "Hey" Thats Just Me;Otay Welp Its Sleepy Sleep Time;Bed Is Callin My Name;I Promise To Make More Interesting Post Titles Lol Just Lazyy;I Love Beyonce (= G.N!
XOXOT$R

First;

Hello There ; My New Blog Im Just Testing This Out ; Its Currently 4.05a.m & I Need Some Rest So With That Being Said G.N & I Will Be Back Later On Today To Post Something Wayy More Interesting ; !
XOXOT$R